thanks rinrin and becky
becky, yes i remember when.. and that's the reason everyday NOW is the way it is. there's definately ups and downs in everyones life.. and them downs can definately make you feel like you'll never see up again.. but dang it.. ya hang it out, and believe in yourself through it, and you find yourself in SUCH a different perspective with life, and suddenly you're up at the peak of things again. weird how life works out! there's a poem i wrote a while back that said.. "everyday is like a brick we hold, to place upon our paths, so don't let your day be told by those misplaced with the past" that came to me from a conversation i had with my 21 year old sister, like a few years ago.. and i live everyday by that convo we had.. i know it's gunna be SO emotional when i go back home.. Joyce (my 21 year old sister) has been in a rehab center this past year and is doing exceptionally well.. and about to move into a halfway house that she's really excited about.. and i just.. well i can't WAIT til the next 5 and a half days go by so i can see her face, hug her, let her know i'm still as close as if i were living in mass still.. i talk to her about once a week on the phone.. but only for 10 minutes at a time.. which definately doesn't compensate for the 2 years i've been away, but we make it due. krysta.. my youngest sister, who just turned 11.. just got her report card last friday and has made honor roll yet again!!!!! i'm so proud of her!!!!!!!!!!! omg, she's getting so big!! she plays soccor and loves it, does girlscouts and loves that too. i'm so glad that she's so into school and sports, and i am SO proud. lol she's so beautiful!!!!!!!! and i'm kinda stuck at the moment.. lace's a little upset because i'm not going to be spending our first christmas together, together. she didn't want to come to mass for christmas because her family is here, and i had my ticket boughten for me for christmas from my aunt.. so i have to go.. (i would have choosen to anyway cuz i miss them all so much!!) but mmm lacey is.. well she's not upset, she understands that i havn't seen them in forever, and i miss and love them with all my heart, but i know she wants me here wth her.. but ya know.. it'll all work out, and i love lace with all my heart. she knows that. and we're having christmas together before i leave.. heheheee i wrote her a poem that i've printed and went to a store in the mall called Things Remembered and had a frame engraved with a quote i tell her all the time, and put the poem in the center, with our favorite pictures around it.. and omg, it looks absolutely beautiful, and i know it's gunna make her cry a good cry hehehehheeee, i love christmas.. and i got her some other stuff too, but omg, i love christmas, and family, and lacey, and and and you all!!!!!!!! lol my bad for writing a dang novel here, but i'm so happy!!!!!!!! hahaha seriously, the best of bestest christmas wishes to you all!!!!!!!!!!!!
*~*much love*~*