Miss So and So said I was no good
And I was misunderstood
Because she critiqued a little bit too hard
Made me wanna forget being a bard
But I talked to Dreamer for a jiff
And she encouraged me, and helped uplift
Me when I was downtrodden, and I talked to God
He said I am not forgotten
Poetry or not, write what you feel
Rhyme or no rhyme, spill how you know how to spill
Your heart and soul into this
When teachers and students, friends and family dismiss
What you have to say, turning their ears away

That doesn’t mean a thing; I know where I came from
I can either wallow, and swallow the bitterness I’m being fed
Or obtain some sense in this head, and move on instead
Of being stuck like Chuck, it doesn’t matter who says you s*ck
I can either chicken out and cluck cluck
Or swim across shores like a duck
Away from my problems, away from my dilemmas,
Things that upset me and disappoint me
Discourage me, instead of facing it like a WO-MAN
Somebody’s got to wear the pants, and demand respect
Earn respect, and friends/acquaintances come and go
Who hasn’t felt neglect from their closest?
So, when I type these verses, from the pain
Experienced in past vocations and churches
No matter who says what about what’s written
All I know how to be is me, and no one has to listen

I’m 23 and ain’t getting’ no younger
Actually, I thank God that I hunger
And thirst after holiness and righteousness
When it all comes down to being eclipsed in sadness
I rejoice eternally with gladness, and try to forsake madness
Naysayers and haters help make a person stronger
Make ‘em stay longer, make ‘em do a 180
From private to public, from soft spoken to outspoken
From hidden to overt, Meridian can’t remain covert
Pleasure and pain is like a mixture,
If you never had one without the other
Then you wouldn’t know what I’m talkin’ about brother
Sister, mother, father, this daughter’s gotta reach out
Reach high, reach beyond the clouds in the sky
Forsake emptiness and confusion, and start using
Power invested within, rather than remaining
Infested with sin, ain’t you tired of givin in?

Yep.

I thought so.

Look, the world spins and the world turns
But there’s a fire that continues to burn
- One negative answer after the other
I know something’s gotta give
Jesus help me to live how You want me to live
So that when I write, I write for You and only You
Because it is You, who I’ve held onto
Like a baby on a pacifier, pacify me
You’re my supplier, satisfy me
As these fingers type ABCD
EFGH, I know that it is You who
Has the last say so, when man says no
When women say forget it, this ain’t your callin’
It’s only a matter of time, before this stallin’
Turns into a blessing that was actually in disguise all along

You’re my song, all the day long
And whatever the world says is wrong
You say is right and God I don’t wanna give up the fight
I don’t wanna go down like a punk
I actually wanna be a Rocky and fight my way through this junk
Because I can’t flunk, and I’ve already sunk into the deep
Now it’s time for me to walk on water like Peter
And tell the devil, boy I’m gonna defeat ya
This is just another feature, another chapter in my life
That has gone unfulfilled
But like Jack Nicholson, something’s gotta give
Something’s gotta let loose for me, for me to
Experience happiness, and finally be happy

The future holds something bright
And I must travel at least 65 to make it through the tunnel
To see that speck of light
My eyesight was narrow, guess it’s because I’m nearsighted
Farsighted? Shoot. I’m just delighted as I write this.
I can’t fight this, because in spite this
Dry spell, only time will tell
When I’ll ultimately and forever step out of the dark ages
And come to the surface, because You purchased
Me with a price, and I only want to focus on pleasing You
Jesus, You are the true judge of my writings
What’s good, what’s bad, what needs tweaking
And I’m just speaking from the heart
I’m kind of sick of running into walls
I hear your voice, but seem farther away from Your calls
So please help me to beckon to You and never let go
Because You are Jehovah,
Which means You have the last say so

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