Nothing In My Heart But Love.. by Terrie*

nothing in my heart but love
all that remained
since you died

waking up to August 02 every year
is a nightmare starting all over again...
no matter how many times I try to look away
I always find myself crying over that day

for all the love that you gave
for all the patience that you were
you were the reflection
of what love was always meant to be

if I could I'd carry
that magic that you seemed to carry in your heart
13 years ago today
you left this life to start another.

when you left my side
I found the true meaning of you and I
no love is the same
and no other love will ever come close
or even compare
to what you and i shared and had

you were a man with a heart so huge
whom wasn't afraid to
give all that you had
from the deepest part of your self

you risked your life to save mine
today I continue to cry
as i plan to go sit by your grave
and play our song
"when I need love"

i already know I'll cry thru the whole song
as I usually do
I know your not there my love
I can't remember when you weren't there

you always took the time to make a call
or sneak home for lunch
or when you'd send everybody home early on a weekend
so that they could spend it w/their family
i'd take you lunch

as i sat next to you doing your invoices
you would start to eat your lunch
then silence made me turn to you
resist we never could
no matter how hard we tried

you'd lock the gate
we got lost within our selves
as we shared our love...
i enjoy reminiscing on our past
i know i can never get it back.

it gives me great comfort sitting here
yes I know my love
the tears must go
I know you see my life

and I know you will always remain very close to my side
your children I know your proud of too
your daughter has grown into a beautiful graceful woman
your son looks so much like you
he's as handsome as can be

I can almost feel you deep in the night
when I think I've fallen fast asleep
I hear you whisper your favorite line
"come a little closer Spanish Eyes"

I quiver when I feel your touch
as your lips kiss my neck and shoulders
and feel your hands on my waist
as quick as I turn around to hold you close to me
you get lost into my dream

I miss the touch of your warm flesh
the softness of your lips pressed against mine
I live every year on this day with much regret

13 years was way to short to spend with you
and yet 13 years is too long to live without you

living life without you ..
yet I'm still loving you in my life..
nothing in my heart but love
all that remained
since you died...
August 02,1991

Paul Geurin (66.139.187.25) -- Monday, August 2 2004, 02:48 pm

Beautiful
Just beautiful ! This poem touched my heart and soul.

Meridian (64.12.116.200) -- Monday, August 2 2004, 02:58 pm

Speechless
He is your all and all, your no. 1! The words just flow out of your heart on to typing paper! Oh, this is so beautiful, as Paul said.... The words reach out, to the readers... Rest in Peace, Terrie's love... 14 years without him! I know you wish you could wind back time, and relive your years with him.... This is tear-jerking Terrie*! Bravo piece! Just divine! Smiles, -Meri

Terrie* (65.54.98.142) -- Monday, August 2 2004, 10:25 pm

Thank you..... Paul,
for appreciating and understanding what my heart was writing about..HUGS/LOVE

Terrie* (65.54.98.142) -- Monday, August 2 2004, 10:32 pm

Meri, now wouldn't that be something?
to wind back time? i like the idea and the thought i'd rather re-live the happy years as a whole w/him than the last moments of his life that i shared w/him before he died..i thought i let go ,thats what i had my heart believing until this day rolls around..then..it starts all over again.. back to my first love..he's all i've ever known...HUGS/LOVE thanx for such lovely comments (wiping a mega tear from right eye)

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