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Ocd
Author: Holly

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ObsessiveÖ

Plan my day meticulously,
Dead on every hour.
To have everything so rigid and organised,
Gives me a feeling of power.
Canít afford to miss a thing,
Or I get quite manic.
If my schedule is disrupted,
It sends me into panic.
Canít afford to lose track of the time,
When I do I go insane.
I keep away from the things that make that,
Happen again and again.

CompulsiveÖ

The only way to control myself,
Is to know whatís ahead.
If anyone were to disrupt my routine,
Iíd probably want them dead.
I guess itís become my way of coping,
So I donít lose the plot.
Control over everything I have.
Is really all Iíve got.
Iíve even started to avoid the things,
That make me lose track of time.
Like the computer, or pointless conversations,
For these things I no longer pine.

DisorderÖ

I never thought myself different from others,
At least when it comes to this.
In one sense it controls my life,
Or is it I controlling it?
All I know is it helps me through,
Keeps me from falling apart.
Iím numbing myself to get through the day,
Using my head not my heart.

------- Author's Notes -------

It's worth mentioning that I don't think I actually have OCD, I just wanted to use the premise of it for the structure of this poem. Though I may be borderlining on it, not sure.

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Comments on this poem/writing:

Mike (82.35.78.155) -- Wednesday, July 6 2005, 08:01 am

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"I'm numbing myself to get through the day, Using my head not my heart." I understand exactly what you mean by that.. People think you're cold and heartless, when you're only trying to survive. I think I'm the opposite of what you've said about avoiding pointless things, though. I use the computer as an escape from reality.
 
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