Mom I Try My Hardest by SCSnicoleSCS

growing up we were close it was just you and me
daddy used to beat you, it broke our family
so you got the strength to leave him and stand up for your own
you used to work over time so we could have a home
You put me in a school and made sure I did well
but when I hit my teenage years our life it went to hell
I tried to keep it together but it all fell apart
I couldn't see it coming but it came from the start
one day you met a guy and he swept you off your feet
and you began to lose yourself you were no longer neat
You than began to drink at first you were funny
we used to dance together and you'd always give me money
but than it was like the devil swept into your soul
you brought me down so deep, I fell into your hole
You became mean and i could see the hatrid on your face
you always said "your just like your dad, your such a discrace!"
I tried to prove to you that I was better than that
but you'd just become more mean and there i sat
I would cry myself to sleep thinking where it went wrong
I tried all the drugs I even bought a bong
I started to cut myself hoping it would get better
And throughout all these years dad never sent me a letter
You were all I had and now I don't have shit
Now you say you never loved me not even a little bit
you say I am no good, you don't see me in you at all
with every word you say I feel myself start to fall
You always have to drink, you're just wasting money
if I add up all the beer you bought, the chunk of change gone mom it's not funny
Now I can't be with you. You make me want to die
This is the last night that I will sit here and cry
I'm 16 and I can do good on my own
even though your love was all i've ever known
I have an aunt with whom I have became close too
she tells me sweet dreams like you never do
she tells me i'm strong and I am doing good
she said what you did what wrong and that you never should
I got my brain in order i can now see right
Don't look for me in the future. You never said good night!

Cassie (68.113.161.39) -- Wednesday, August 3 2005, 03:20 am

someone will be there
you have me.and yourself. your your own bestfriend. no matter what happens.....in life...or out of it, someone will be there for you. they will be there to catch you when you fall, so put some faith back into your self and trust into others. and things will turn around
. just remember they have to get worse before thay can get better

Taeya (64.90.157.65) -- Thursday, August 24 2006, 12:00 am

:(
hey who ever wrote this you did a really good job and i love it and reading it brings back a lot of memories so if this is how you feel i just want you to know that your not a lone keep up the good work k!!

Charity (66.216.145.253) -- Friday, March 2 2007, 07:54 pm

Dont give up
I,ve been in your shoes with everyword youve said, now I see my mother lying in a hospital on life support. She needs a new liver that she will never get, but I wont leave her side. two wrongs wont ever make it right. I feel your pain. Sometimes we have to be better than all that.

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