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You Left Me Here
Author: RainFlyer8

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I know that he loves me
And I love him too
But thereís stuff he doesnít
Know why I do
I tried to hide it
Didnít want him to discover
All I was doing
What I kept undercover
Itís not my fault
I swear its not
I feel as bare
As bones that rot
I try to fight it
Try to ignore
Till my heart aches
And my bones are sore
But I canít do it
I donít have the strength
Because Iíve been doing it
For a timely length
I said I was sorry
I tried to explain
My tears burning
Like acid rain
It rained that day
When he left
He ignored my feelings
My heart bereft
He couldnít know
That leaving me
Would only increase
Those deadly deeds
I did to feel better
To know there was
A greater pain than
I had because
I feel so empty
Feel so cold
Iím always tired
My eyes look old
I shouldnít be feeling this
Iím not fully-grown
I should have someone to protect me
I need someone to call my own
But now he left me
He doesnít get it
To what Iím feeling now
I give him all the credit
If he would have stayed
I would have stopped
Instead I stay here
With vodka slopped
All down my shirt
And in my hair
My eyes are empty
So I cannot stare
At anyone or anything
And if youíd come back
Iíd give everything
But you wonít come
Until I quit
And youíre so stupid
You donít get it
Itís because youíre gone
That Iím stuck
Whyíd you leave
It must be my poor luck
Too many problems to count
Iím helpless I proclaim
I swear I would do anything
To hear you say my name
I just wanna seek comfort
In your arms
I just wanna feel like
You wont let me be harmed
I donít have the strength to fight it
Not anymore
You robbed it of me
When you walked out that door
Itís up to you to fix me
My Soul is in your hands
Itís your mission to guide
My heart in unknown lands
I donít know if I can rely on you
Itís a faith that is fragile
And Iím cold and desperate
As I lie in Deathís cradle
Please come rescue me
From the clutches of doubt
I hear my soul screaming
And my heart turning about
Broken-hearted is an understatement
Thereís just no was to measure
How much pain Iím in
I know itíll go on forever
Until your back
Until you realize
All the pain you caused
Showing in my eyes
Thereís no medication strong enough
To fix my disorders
To straight jacket too confining
To fulfill the doctorís orders
An un-washable shirt
An unfixable car
Its your doing and my own
Thatís gotten me so far
Down the path of despair
Drowning in the sea of sorrow
I cut my wrists and drink
Just to get to tomorrow
What do I live for
To feel pain everyday
I ponder these things
As on my bed I lay
No happily ever after
No it will be ok
Iím so sick
Of the games my mind plays
And Iím laying here remembering
The look in your eyes
As it finally dawns on me
You left me here to cry

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