I Have To Be Strong by SCSnicoleSCS

tears that fall from my eyes on my face
don't help anything i built my own case
because i am a minor my wants don't matter
since this drama started i've seemed to get fatter
i can't be with my dad, he makes me feel scared
and i can't be with my mom because she seems to have never cared
my step dad finally decided he had to leave my mom
actually i'm surprised he stayed with her that long
that hole my mom dug herself well it just got really deep
she lost everything that she thought was hers to keep
she said the last insult to him and he said he's gone
she said to just come back that we'd all get along
she blew it herself she's only to blame
and for her punching me it's her head hung in shame
i finally took that step and decided to get help
she won't ever hit me again, i'll no longer yelp
the words she's said to me i no longer have to hear
now that i think about it i should've done this last year
she should've stopped her drinking and everything would've been fine
but now everythings gone that was hers and what was mine
see she thinks it's only her heart thats breaking through all this
how does she think i felt all those nights without a good night kiss
yea i took a big step but i didn't take it alone
my sister is going to court for me so i don't go in a home
you see she went through this too and she turned out alright
im glad i decided to leave this huge fight
i have to stand up and carry myself now
i'm just learning though i'm not sure exactly how
but i can do this because others have my hand
they already picked me up so i can finally stand
my mom she needs help but she won't do it for herself
i'm really gonna miss her when she dies from her health
her liver must be gone and she'll never get it back
and now i'm gone too i've recieved my final wack
so good bye mom this is it, so long
i'm on my own now, i have to be strong

SCScassieSCS (163.153.111.64) -- Monday, September 19 2005, 05:33 pm

be strong
have i told you i love you soo much nikk's what would i do without you in my life. you are the best friend anyone could ask for... ijust i hope i can be like that for you!!!!!

Katlynn (24.176.139.80) -- Wednesday, December 28 2005, 06:00 am

i love you
Amazing job Nicole. I'm very sorry about that hole mess. I'm really happy that you have gone to get help but sorry you mom hasn't or won't. That must be hard, i wouldn't know i'm not most people saying that they know how you feel well i don't so i really don't know what to say. But You are a very talented, strong person that i know and this poem shows that you are strong and you are willing to fight your own battles. love you hunni.

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