And They Say I'm Crazy by Angelina

I starved myself when I was twelve.
All the gagging never helped.
At thirteen I heard voices loud.
They never went away, too proud.
I'd cut so deep that I would bleed.
But I wouldn't die no matter how I tried.
I took big pills and I overdosed.
Nothing helped.
Nothing killed.
I flunked eighth grade.
My parents got mad.
So I cut even deeper with the razor I had.
At fourteen I was nearly raped.
I'd go to bed and I'd see his face.
Not long after, Kyle died
In a car that crashed and took his life.
He was my boyfriend for many months
But he had to die and that's what sucks.
I moved to Nebraska against my will.
That's when I met Nate
And I took a big spill.
He was so violent.
He threw and he punched.
Until one day I pushed him away.
I went out with Alex, my one true love.
But I held onto something
That flew far above.
It took me six months
To keep myself away from him.
And to this day, I still cry
And I wait for him.
When my brother committed suicide
Everything went numb.
The medication didn't help
And I wanted life to be done.

And they say I'm crazy.
I've confided myself to you.
You can take this trust and friendship
Or you can do what they do.

Rob (64.12.96.70) -- Wednesday, May 7 2003, 09:42 pm

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That was really deep angelina. And i respect you for not being afraid to push away the abuse. There are some guys out there that treat women with respect. Like there supposed to

LinzAy (205.188.208.37) -- Tuesday, May 13 2003, 04:56 am

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Good way to show us what you've been through...good wording......good writing Angelina...sorry you've been thru so much hell

Gina (24.32.53.47) -- Thursday, July 26 2007, 04:48 am

make peace with the past
I commend you for recognizing the feelings behind your actions, that takes alot of soul searching. Keep searching your soul you'll find peace there.

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