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Death Didn't Succeed
4 November, 2005
Author: Taylor James

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today i nearly died
but death didn't succeed
i took a few pills
then made then made myself bleed.

the reason why i do it
you wont understand
i do it because i have an addiction
that doesn't have any solution.

its my only way to relieve my pain,
they all say im stupid
just because i cut my arms
but they dont know the relief i get
with the blades charms.

i take pills to end my life
so i dont have to live in constant strife
fighting this battle each and everyday
can i ask you, why this pain doesnt go away?

whatever i do is never enough
so i need to cut
to get away from the pain
but not yet has the pain gone away
not even to this day

------- Author's Notes -------

it seems that no matter what i do the pain is always the same

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Comments on this poem/writing:

Mike (82.35.78.186) -- Sunday, November 6 2005, 02:25 am

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You say cutting isn't helping, so why do it? That sounds wrong.. If it doesn't help you, it's just a waste of time and strength. Maybe you should try to find some other way, something that will help..
Taylor James (81.153.3.163) -- Monday, November 7 2005, 03:49 pm

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mike,the reason why i still cut is beacause it helps me in that moment in time i know its not a long term solution,as the pain eventually comes back,but when i do it it helps me to forget whats goin on inside of my head.
Taylor James (81.153.3.163) -- Monday, November 7 2005, 03:49 pm

ooops

thanks for the comment lol
Meridian (172.148.76.30) -- Tuesday, November 8 2005, 04:38 pm

Intriguing, inspirational

Taylor! That's what I like to hear, "Death didn't succeed". You've defeated the one thing that tried to win you over, and look at you now. I'm glad it didn't succeed, regardless of how bad you may want to end your life...you're here for a reason Taylor. Beautiful!
P.S. You don't mind if I call you Teeej do you?
Sue king (107.77.169.8) -- Sunday, January 31 2016, 03:56 pm

I know

I live the same I cut to hopefully relieve the pain the pain I've lived for 50 years.
 
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