You use to tell me to be good, not to lie or steal
And I use to listen, because I thought your words were real
But as I grew older, I saw you thru my eyes
I saw you as you were, full of hate and lies
I can still remember the first slap from your hand
I often wonder if it made you feel more likea man
The beatings they got worse as time went along
Mostly because you were drunk, I hadn't done any wrong
It went from slaps to punches, not caring where they fell
Coming home from school was like coming home to hell
You took away my dignity, you stripped me of my pride
You left me feeling worthless, and empty deep inside
So when I began to lie, on you I put the blame
Cause if you could do it, couldn't I do the same?
When I would get caught, you were my excuse
You taught me how to lie, you caused the abuse
But I no longer blame you for who I am today
I take full responsibility, I guess you could say
Because I met a better man than you could ever be
And that better man lives inside of me
It may have taken me a while to come to understand
But you did not beat me down if that was your plan
I fell down a time or two, but now I'm standing tall
Ready to defeat my ghost once and for all
I will not succumb to my past, this is a promise that I make
I will fight for the rest of my life if thats how long it takes.

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