Diary Reflection
31 March, 2008
author: Rebecca Ditch-Hammack (aka Dreamer)
I've re-read the words of another time
Writ long ago, line after painful line
Day after day and night after night
I wrote of longing and depressions plight
Sex was the medicine for my longing
It was a way of feeling; of belonging
My fear of hurt kept me alone
Betrayal of trust was all I had known
Endless nights crying of how I was treated
Feeling somehow of love I was cheated
So far, I have come since those days
Of sex and drugs and living in a haze
But if I hadn't lived the life I did
Making the bad choices as a kid
I wouldn't be who I am today
Even though it sounds so cliche
I never gave up on the dream
No matter how it hurt my self-esteem
Today I'm in such a better place
Yesterday's steaming tears, now erased
------- Author's Notes -------
I came across some old diary entries. I re-read and re-lived my painful past. The things we put ourselves thru when we fear rejection. Keeping us from attaining the things we seek the most. |
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Comments on this poem/writing:
| Terrye* (67.187.237.233) -- Wednesday, April 2 2008, 04:48 am Gently Erased over Time--Sad is it not? --that we at some point must in our quest upon our Journey--experience the labor of pain... in order to achieve the finer fruits and find the true meanin' of unconditional Love --- well expressed -- |
| Meridian (72.218.113.25) -- Friday, April 4 2008, 03:14 am Hey Dreamer! This poem is so good. So in depth. Very relatable to me, but in a different way... |
| LinzAy (72.189.15.210) -- Monday, April 7 2008, 05:01 pm Made me think of just recently finding my old diary entries of how hard my childhood was. Good poem!! |
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