As I listen to so-and-so sing, I think to myself:
Why am I so afraid?
Will certain events in my life change?
Will I improve in the areas I lack improvement?
What does my future hold?
What is my destiny?

This song makes me self-evaluate and ponder myself deeply. Who am I? What do I want to do? What do I want to be? What are my goals? Why doesn’t my smile last long? Why don’t I feel good when I go out in public? Why am I lost? Why do I daydream often? Why? Why? All right. I’m sick of asking so many questions right now. Will resume asking myself questions later. But I am curious about my real identity. Is there another individual within? Whoops. Just said I wouldn’t ask myself anymore questions and here I am interrogating myself again.

Sing to me. Sing me into oblivion. Sing me into Jupiter and Mars. Sing me into another world. As I currently undergo my trial, I’ve got to continue to write or I’ll go insane if I don’t. Got another question for myself. I just can’t help it right now. So here goes nothing.

1. Will I ever get over certain things in my life?
2. Will I stop being self-conscious?
3. Who am I fooling?
4. How old will I be before I truly enjoy me?
5. Don’t I know that practice makes perfect?
6. Will I ever get it together?
7. That was idiosyncratic. Now why did I share and think that?
8. Will I ever let things go?
9. What am I doing?
10. Am I awake yet?

Okay I’m done. Time to start getting out of funk mode. From the looks of it, it seems that’s the direction I’m headed. So, it’s time to switch gears and focus my mind on something else. Anything but what I’m currently writing about. Okay. Let’s see. I got it.

Here goes.

I've got to reiterate this truth: I may not have everything I want, but I certainly have what I need. I praise Jesus, in spite of me and my emotions. I know that I’d be a fool if I blamed God for any unhappy situation or circumstance.

Who am I? I can now answer that question. I am a child of God and I’ve got to start talking like one. I've got to realize that no matter what I feel, I must learn to trust and have faith in God that He’ll undoubtedly bring me out.

Amen.