Ceaced sometime within; within the part that felt that something was wrong; even if to you it was not that's what I felt; not knowing it would be this hard; wounds are still fresh; time supposedly heals all wounds; but altogether too late; regret; not what I've done but the way I've come about doing it; wishing I could say more; staying active keeps me active but does not stop me from thinking about you, the Ex-factor.

First kiss and first touch was arousing; deceptively I held on even tighter; afraid of any outburst of pain; seems better although it doesn't feel better; pensively worst I lay

Through him I found the celestial need for someone; I visualize perfection within; serene and silent but there; I embrace his friendship and care like no other; his lack of words was a barricade for me; his humor engulfs me with an overwhelming force to hold him closer; endless thoughts of him are essential to me; the first and the last for a long while, The Ex-factor