I Wondered If You Knew by LinzAy

I feel it was my fault that we didn't last as long as I thought we could have
Maybe if I was more open with my feelings, maybe then we would have
The small amount of time we spent together was unlike the rest of my life
And the pain I felt when you left me cut me unlike any other knife
The pain turned into blame, I blamed you - told myself that you used me
And even though I still have a little of that feeling left, I now put some of the blame on me
I didn't show you how much I cared about you - didn't even tell you
I waited for you to hold my hand, waited for you to kiss me out of the blue
I waited for you to say you missed me - and still couldn’t say it in return
I waited for you to talk about our relationship - and when you finally did it burned
But I didn't let you see the pain I felt - didn't want you to know how much I cared, after the fact
So I simply went on with my day - holding back my tears, putting on an act
I sit here doubting that you ever knew what my feelings once were
Doubting you ever knew how much I cared for you, doubting that for sure
I’m over you now, I have been for the longest time
But I wondered if you knew what you should have would you still be mine
If you knew I then woke everyday just wanting to hear your voice
If you knew I then spoke of you constantly - would you still have made that choice
If you could have read my mind you would have known you were all I thought
If I knew if you knew how I felt I wouldn’t have just said "okay" I would’ve fought
But I don’t regret that past - because we’re both so happy now with whom we now have
I just wondered if you knew the love from me you once had

everett (209.240.212.100) -- Sunday, March 16 2003, 06:27 am

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wow that was great, and it hit home here cause it sounds like a situation i had a few years ago. Good poem though... excellent writing!

LinzAy (205.188.209.103) -- Monday, March 17 2003, 06:41 am

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Aw! thank you everett!!
Sorry it hits home! wish it didnt for me!

RinRin (24.25.61.26) -- Tuesday, May 13 2003, 10:25 pm

oh wow..
why do we all go through this?? hehe...hits home for me too...i wish i'd found this poem earlier! just a few months ago i went through this...still am kinda...i've thought the same exact thoughts...you are amazing! i'd never be able to express the thoughts as well as you did through this poem! great work! :)

LinzAy (152.163.252.99) -- Tuesday, May 13 2003, 10:39 pm

RinRin
Hey there Rin! It surprises me whenever a poem of mine that's not in the NEW WEEKS pile get a comment! Ha.....but anyways.....

Thanks a bunch, i'm glad you like the poem and that it expressed those feelings in words you couldn't have put them into. But i'm sorry that you, as we all probably can, relate to this poem. Hell.....i related to it again for a while there........THankyou for your comment :)

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