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A Loner's Pain
Author: Sax

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Don't take her,
her days be few with us.

It's unbearable...
I'm loseing my mind,
She held me tight,
I'm so scared, there's no remedy,
no more remedy for the pain,
but I'm so glad for the memories.

So glad,
and yet so sad...

She held me tight,
an Angel of love,
I can't believe God could be so cruel,
so cruel...
I curse Christ for what has happened!

Now its time to just say no to love,
it's time for me to get a special place in hell.

I tried to tell her,
but it's only talk,
I've waited and waited,
now I'm the only one,
we're still together,
but we're lonelier.

I rush home to bed,
I soak my head,
I see her face,
underneath my pillow,
regardless of the light I can still feel her,
god I wish it would stop hurting.

I wake next morning,
tired still yawning,
the rest is gone,
as is the day,
but the pain still stays,
I wish it would go with the wind.

Is this just the start my dear friends?
Has my Carnival of Horrors come for a permanent stay?
Though long gone, she won't let me forget,
when at night I wake up in cold sweat,
thoughts of her filling my head.

The war is now through with me,
there is not much left of me,
nothing seems real but my pain within,
my eyes seek a reality better than this here.

I can't help but feel alone,
though it's obvious I am not...
I dont want to hurt the few I love,
but it seems like everytime I end up doing so.

This world is running out of heros.
This world is decending down into a blazing hell.

I told my Angel I loved her,
yet she did not love me in return,
and it's torn me up inside like a rag doll in a tornado.

Now, theres someone close to me,
one with deep feelings for me,
and this hurts just as bad,
knowing that the scenario has been turned around.
And the pain I could cause her.

They say things will get better down the road,
but so far it's only been getting worse.

Is there something wrong with me?
Have I truely died inside?

It's unbearable...
I'm loseing my mind,
She held me tight,
I'm so scared, there's no remedy,
no more remedy for the pain,
but I'm so glad for the memories.

Now its time to just say no to love,
it's time for me to get a special place in hell.

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Comments on this poem/writing:

Abbas (192.168.102.35) -- Wednesday, February 2 2005, 06:47 am

Nice man really am amazed

well it seems like that it really happend with you a person going through this kind of thing can only describe this much depth
tara (164.106.227.78) -- Tuesday, March 22 2005, 04:37 pm

no title

it was great
truley perfect
bell (165.29.58.126) -- Tuesday, November 21 2006, 03:59 pm

lovely

i realy liked that poem! it made me remember things i thought i had forgotten
 
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