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So Alone
24 August, 2002
Author: Seizure

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I know you've heard it all, said by me before
Please empty your minds, and listen just once more
I changed my whole life, to please my girlfriend
I tried to be me, but had to pretend
Or we both would fight, over stupid things
When we both first met, I felt like I had wings

We would lay together, holding each other
I could not picture, me with any other
She was so perfect, I found my soul mate
I never thought that I, could bring so much hate
I tried to make it work, she was all I had
But the more I tried, the more she would get mad

I did not understand, why she changed this way
It seemed like another, price that I must pay
No one else is left, please Crystal don't go
I want to make it work, but I do not know
What you want in life, what I have to give
A life without her, is one I doubt I'll live

She means so much more, than the sky above
At least just to me, why curse me with love?
I would give my life, to end suffering
That she must endure, that I think I bring
I know why it is, that she turned to stone
It's because I am, meant to be alone

I do not deserve, comfort of your touch
Putting up with me, seems like way too much
I would do anything, to make you glad
At least there's the times, that we both had
You should throw me out, I think you should be free
You meant everything, everything to me

------- Author's Notes -------

"Goodbye to love. I feel empty already."

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Comments on this poem/writing:

Barb (216.129.37.250) -- Sunday, August 25 2002, 03:09 pm

Very Sincere

I'll use some tact this time.Hhhaaaa
I think your poem show's that you were hurt.you should be able to be yourself with someone not have to pretend I'm 48 and found someone who likes me just the way I am my faults too. just give yourself time and you'll find someone who likes you for you .Unless you are a real jerk. Oooops there I go again. Haaa come on Seizure laugh it was funny
Pamela (66.38.146.217) -- Sunday, August 25 2002, 03:52 pm

Emptiness is the worst feeling...

There is nothing worse then feeling empty. Death, compared to an empty life, is golden. I also have a hole in my heart that still hurts when the wind blows through. Sometimes comfort comes with believing that love is just something we made up to try and prevent lonliness - and I would have to say that it backfired. Beautiful poem :o)
Siesure (216.129.37.250) -- Monday, August 26 2002, 08:41 pm

so alone

very touching don't give up hope love will find you again
barb (216.129.37.250) -- Monday, August 26 2002, 08:47 pm

so alone

can you tell I'm blonde Ha Ha.your name seizure is not suppose to be there. mine is under very touching
Dark Angel (198.189.125.72) -- Wednesday, August 28 2002, 10:05 pm

Pot

I like pot!!! he he he
Jola (142.154.111.91) -- Saturday, August 31 2002, 03:40 am

Very touchin

That poem was very touchin but sometimes ppl will do that to ur heart....but u'll find someone else!
this poem actually made me cry it kinda reminded me of my b/f....latez
im so alon (67.192.145.12) -- Sunday, September 1 2002, 10:39 am


hey that is very sad but i had the same ting happen to me im crying everyday and im so upset i wood take my life for him anyday i love him w all my heart and yah so dont fell alon becoues it happen to me to
Luc (12.84.5.90) -- Wednesday, September 11 2002, 03:30 am

.....

"was everything we had just a joke?
i've run out of patience,tears, and hope.
love does not conquer all,
and now im screaming becouse of you."
- type o negative

dont know that just popped in my mind. i know how you feel, i've pretended to be someone else just to be loved doesnt really work out you just get fucked up even more. (pardon the language?) eh well see ya later? o0
Seizure (216.47.215.144) -- Thursday, September 12 2002, 11:33 pm

well damn...

I never thought I would write anything that would get comments from this many people... they are all appreciated... especially Dark Angel's... that one brought a tear to my eye let me tell you.
babygurl (216.135.36.186) -- Saturday, October 19 2002, 02:25 am


I love this poem, i can relate to it a lot. It is an awful feeling loving someone and them not loving you back. I love all your poem my favorite is The Pendulum.........that is a great poem with a good lesson.
J. (209.214.53.3) -- Tuesday, October 22 2002, 02:35 am

geez...

Well, that poem was really good, the best i heard from you and a long time, but i gotta wonder, would all these ppl respond this way if they knew what an absurd thing that was over? or would it actually strengthen the feeling hmm? cuz to me i think crystal's a dumbass but you know that:) preach on my nigga...
Seizure (68.155.218.237) -- Wednesday, October 23 2002, 09:38 pm

yeah

Cool, glad you thought it was coo J. But now I guess you can be happy I used it on the song, "Lonely." So it's not just chillin' there.
J. (209.214.52.22) -- Thursday, October 24 2002, 05:00 am

yup...

that i finally f**king heard...
Leah (12.232.5.189) -- Wednesday, March 12 2003, 03:28 am

To a wonderful writer

Well once again reat poem. To State tho obvious Crystal is missing out. You should never change your self to benifet somone else, you will just end up getting hurt even more. Even though i am but a 15 year old, i have lived just as much as everyone else and i have tryed changing myself to benifet my current bf at the time. And belive me, it wasent worth it. In conclusion, i hope you know that you are much better that anyone somone else can make you become. This poem really touched me as you can tell but i have much more of your poems to read ..............
LinzAy (205.188.209.112) -- Wednesday, March 12 2003, 11:14 am

......

Well, It's not hard to tell that this came from the heart...and with that being said....very good poem. And i do agree with MOSTLY everyone that posted a comment....hehe, i dont smoke!....That this Crystal chick is missing out on a hell of a person! And that you definitely shouldn't hafta change for anybody...even somebody you love. You shouldn't hafta change for anybody ****, the right one will love you for who you are.....and trust me.....she'll come along sooner or later!! How could she not....with the love you seem to have inside of you (willing to change for someone and writing a poem which comes from the heart for someone)someone will definitely see that love. Not just those of us who are here for you on this site, But that special someone that God brings by your way. Wait, maybe that wasn't the right way to put it since you dont..well, yeah. Simply put, Don't give up...keep your heart in waiting, just not too desperately. Love will find you.

And i liked what Leah said "you are much better than someone else can make you become." She's right.
LinzAy (205.188.209.112) -- Wednesday, March 12 2003, 11:16 am

longest

well, i do believe that was one of the longest comments i've left on one of your poems Seiz......uh hum...but anyways!!!
Martin Vann (65.57.58.67) -- Thursday, March 13 2003, 05:03 pm

You didn't loose everything!

Seiz,

This is alomost out of character for you, a different kind of pain, this time filled with softness, I haven't seen. Hurt's like hell, doesn't it, to have someone you love walk away. However, you still have two lovers left, your music and your words. I have heard your music via this site and obviously, your words are still in your heart.

I appreciate you telling us about it.

MartinV
anonymous (208.254.109.22) -- Friday, March 28 2003, 07:10 pm

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lovely poem, it reminds me of my relationship w/ the love of my life! dont worry you will find someone who will love you for you.
Raul (208.254.109.22) -- Wednesday, April 2 2003, 06:31 pm

Beautiful!

Beautiful poem! its exactly how i feel about the love of my life! it cant get anymore clearer! i love all your poems, you can show and express your feelings so well. i wish i could be like that!
crystal (208.254.109.23) -- Wednesday, April 2 2003, 08:08 pm

Raul's Right

Raul's right you can show and expess your feelings so well. love your poems 2. this poem especially because it sounds like a relationship i once had. anyways youre a great poet!
Capricorn (62.30.217.106) -- Wednesday, April 2 2003, 11:37 pm

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Here I am at the end of a long list of your admirers...should say something to you Seizure!

Your poem has made me feel sad, but hey!..you shoulndn't have to try to be someone else just to be loved.You must be true to yourself. I'm sure you've heard it all before, but one day you will find someone who loves you as you are.All the `loves' you find first are just a practice, so when the real one comes, it will be `special'. Expressed so well seizure! A very good poem.
Morgan (63.162.80.70) -- Tuesday, April 15 2003, 01:13 am

Very true

I'm in the same situation with a guy friend!!
 
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