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Ican'tbelieveididit
Author: Shiloh

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Ican'tbelieveIdidit.Hardtounderstandhow.Iwasonlyakid,onlyateenager.
Iremembertheheat,thesmellofsweatandmoldonmyshirt,thedampandcold
feelingoftheclothbecauseitneverdried,andIremembertherecoilof"rockandroll"
andIwasn'tevenoldenoughtovoteyet,butIhadagun!TrythathereintheStates!Noway;
theseason'sclosedhere,exceptindreams.Istilldoitinmydreams.FunnybuttodayI'm
moreofaPeacenikthantheHippiesofthe'60's.Theywereright,inaway,andsowere
Peter,PaulandMary,butwedidn'tlisten,didwe?Imagic-markeredabigPeacesymbol
onmyflakjacket,halfmocking,halfserious.Neverhadashort-timercalendarforthedays-
Ionlycountedthenights;theyscaredhelloutofme.Ihatedthenightandthedarkbecause
Icouldn'tseeandmyimaginationplayedhellwithmyears.Inevercountedthedays.Still
gotthepullringfrommyfirstgrenadethrowninfear;damnnearblewmyselfaway,butIlearned.
VolunteeredforVietnam.Crazy,huh?Right.HowwasItoknowI'dneverbeabletostopfighting
thatdamnwar?Learnedsomething,though;acanofC-rationpeachesisworthapackof
Marlborosandadeadheroain'tworthnothing.Liveheroesaren'tworthmuch,either.Now?
Well,Iguessit'sOK,mostdays;Igotajob,gotadivorce,gotmarriedagain,gotsomekidsanda
houseandsomewheels,stuffinthefridge,gotachance,man,whichisallanyonehas,unless
you'renotaVetthenyoureallygotitmade.BustmyhumpsoIcanlivehalfwaydecentanditdon't
meannothin'.IrememberwhenIgotmyfirstkillandIfinallyunderstoodthatmyriflecoulddothat
magicthing,thatIcouldknockthelifeoutofahumanbeingwithjusttheslightestpressureofone
finger.Andknowingthat,Iwasafraid,Iwasscared.I'msorry,sosorrysosorrysosorrysosorry
sosorry.

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Luke Mudge (69.205.187.220) -- Sunday, November 4 2007, 06:55 pm

govt

our "govt" doesnt think like that.. which is why so many humans suffer because the "govt" doesnt care. Love you dad, another reason why my kids are never fighting for a country that doesnt give a damn about it's fellowmen and women
 
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