Alcohol Fix by Tonya

Bottomless pit, and I fall every time.
It's no one's fault but mine.
It's not in the genes or the way I grew up.
I simply love being "deep in my cups."

No matter the kind, beer or liquor.
Whichever one can buzz me quicker.
Being sober, my life is in disarray.
But when I'm drunk, everything is okay.

Once I start drinking, I don't stop until the end.
I open up and socialize, everyone is a friend.
I wash away sorrows with vodka, not tears.
My problems disappear after pounding 10 beers.

When I wake up and strive to remember the night.
I realize alochol doesn't make wrongs go right.
I end up feeling empty and lost.
With each shot, my soul is the cost.

But when the sun goes down and the moon comes out.
I'am drunk at a party, up and about.
It's a vicious cycle that I can't break.
I'am afraid one day my life it will take.

Many decisions I regret the next day.
In the end, I know only I will pay.

Now my stomach is rumbling with hunger, but I embrace the pain.
I guzzle down the liquor and feel fire through my veins.
I enjoy the feeling of hunger, I love the effects of the rum.
It's better not to feel the pain, it's better to be numb.

Meridian (205.188.208.107) -- Saturday, March 20 2004, 03:29 pm

AA
Tonya; I know a person like this. His lung collapsed and his a teenager. That doesn't matter; but, I just hope you find a way to stop your craving before it really does claim your life. I hope it doesn't, Tonya.

Live each day with expectation
Meridian

wesley (65.15.185.232) -- Friday, December 17 2004, 07:44 am

no title
did you learn how to drink by watching me or something?

kahla (172.16.2.60) -- Thursday, February 24 2005, 10:32 pm

god is tith you
tonya,
if you real'y want to stop you might look into church or ask god for the answers. he can help you with everything. i had that problem too but i started going to church and joining youth groups and now i very rarely get an alcohol craving. i hope you can find the way out

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