Author: Bizza


Always lonely is that what the future holds for me?
I can invision how my life will be.
I know I am loved and people care,
But why am I here Why am I there?

I am always in pain,
As my body goes insane.
It throbbs and I scream,
What does all this mean?

Does it mean that I am dieing?
I feel my body try to shut down I know it's trying,
I have done so much,
And yes my heart is touched.

I guess I am ready for that day.
As I pray that day is far away.
I cry the pain is so great,
I guess yes I am very afraid.

If I die soon please let me show.
Everyone I care and let them know,
I am your guardian angel.
And I love you so.

------- Author's Notes -------

Meaning of this poem: I wrote this poem because I at the time was having these very bad pains in my stomache. The reason I was having this pain is because of a tumor that i have in my stomache, And a ovarian disease I found most of this out when I turned 14. But now that I waited to long both my ovaries have to be tooken out and I wont be able to have kids.


Comments on this poem/writing:

Meridian ( -- Thursday, February 3 2005, 10:05 pm

Oh Bizza

I'm sorry to hear about your sickness. I can only imagine your grief and sorrow, when you learned this depressing news, had to happen to you.

I hope you'll find some way to cope.
I hope and pray the operation goes well, and that you'll live as long as Methuselah! I know you don't know me that well, but I don't want you to die soon. Stay strong Bizza, stay strong.

Bizza ( -- Thursday, February 24 2005, 02:34 am

Thank you

I have found ways and groups that I go in to talk about how I feel about what is going on. I keep surpressing and trying not to go to get my surgery cuz I want to have kids. But I know it's just gonna hurt me.. Thank you so much for caring. Meridian
Name:                                           Remember Me

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