Do You Know What Its Like? by WilTheThrill

Do you know what its like
to stay up all night,
sitting in the darkness,
wincing at the light,
just thinking of one person,
and fumbling your confidence,
hating that person,
and geting into arguments,
with yourself
on whether or not,
you should pity her for her loss,
and let her rot,
or if you should,
talk to her and bring her back,
do you think of this,
when your room is filled with black?

Terrie* (65.135.86.190) -- Thursday, July 22 2004, 02:55 am

Wil, i can honestly say..
that i felt like that..i was so angry w/my husband.......because he died on me before we had a chance to watch our kids graduate, from grade, high school and college, get married,walk my daughter down the aisle ,have children of their own..yes i was angry i was bitter... but there was nothing i could do.never got angry with him before..but belive me my anger stung it burned real deep..i wished he would of left me for another woman ,over dying.. at least i would of been able to see him alive..but yes i cried to myself shut everybody out i didn't want pity. nobody could give me the answers i wanted or bring him back .stayed semi-depressed for almost 2 years the love i had for my kids wouldn't allow me to give up.. he stole my heart and took it with him..well 13 years later..still alone but by MY choice..not angry anymore ,just more aware of my feelings i still think of him but not in anger..no room for blackness anymore.. perhaps your darkness and mine differ..but they were both difficult to live/w and let go.. great writing..

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