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Overdose To Salvation
Author: Fallen_Angel

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Today I laid broken, below gods eyes,
I swallowed a pill, 1 for every other tear I cried
1 down and only 43 more to go.
I imagine the blood that would flow,
another deep breath
2 down and only 42 until my last and I meet Mr.death
My fingers gasping onto the next
and my third death whish I swallow..
Hello god,I only have 41 more to go.
Lay them all in a line, one at a time.
each one for another prayer I'm praying to you my lord.
I'm rescuing my self giving my self savor.
4 down and I've only got 40 left
Until I can just close my eyes and forget.
39 more,39 more until my last dying scream
Only 38 more 38, until I seal my fate
down to the last 37 until I'm knocking on the doors of hell
put them in a perfect order down to 36.
I only want one more wish,tell him I did my best.
But without him I couldn't go threw with this.
and I'm sorry I broke my promise
I reach 35, I don't want to exist,I have no reason to be alive.
I told you god, if you took my angel away,I'd end my life
take another glimpse of salvation
I can feel death coming closer amongst my skin.
34 until I breathe no more.
pill by pill until I'm losing count and I'm OD'ing on my doubt
Only a few more to go,until I reach my goal
just a few more to go,until I see my angel
Just close my eyes and say goodbye
Think happy thoughts as my eyes begin to get heavy
I'm thinking of my love,
I'll see him once my salvation is done
another pill down my throat, the tears are continuing to flow,
and I feel my body going numb I can feel my self letting go
Shaking hands but I wont let my savors slip threw the cracks between my fingertips.
I'm opening my eyes as far as possible but their closing slowly and I can feel death gasping me,
another handful of pills I take each one in hopes it'll lead me to my dying smile
I'm down to my last one before I lay in my coffin,
one more until I can run to him, and lay in his arms again
just one more until I sleep for an eternity..
just one more until I can feel him next to me.

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Lotus (24.130.173.94) -- Sunday, April 9 2006, 02:11 am

wow

im speechless you captured the world in that thats one of the most dramatic things ive ever read you made me feel alive thank u
 
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