I sit and I stare as time goes by,
about the times we shared, just me and this guy.
We started out as friends, and nothing more,
but ended up, he was the one I adored.
There’s that little white smile, and those gorgeous baby blues,
why couldn’t it work, just me and you?
It’s been three nights since I’ve cried,
I wish you would have just tried.
I don’t understand why I let myself go through this,
it must have been just that one little kiss.
If it takes you forever, at least you’ll understand,
that I wish we could walk hand in hand.
What is this thing keeping us apart
I wish that I was in your heart.
I hope its not my looks that make you feel shame
because remember hun, beauty isn’t fame.
I have to tell you how I feel
but please, please don’t make it a big deal.
You’re an awesome person, and your personality is great,
it will only change simply by fate.
I don’t know how to tell you, or to even send a clue,
I don’t know why, but I’m falling for you.
Wait a sec because I lied,
sorry but I’m a little tongue tied.
I know exactly why I’m falling for you,
does the word love begin to give you a clue?
I feel so dumb because this can’t come true,
and deep down this makes me blue.
Why do I ask and why do I try?
Only to make myself break down and cry.
I sit and I wonder, but why do I wait,
I guess it’s you and love comes after fate.
I tell myself that nothing is fair,
so why do I still care.
I guess its your laugh and your silly little smirks,
I hope you realize that sometimes you can be a jerk.
The way you show you care, and the little things you do
like teasing me when I cant do something I try to.
I love the small things in our friendship that make it even better
I hope one day I can give you this, but not just a letter.
I hope one day you will consider all the things I’ve said about you,
and maybe one day make a me and you.
I know I keep saying that love is fate,
and I know its not girls like me who you date.
I don’t know everything about you
and the same about me from you.
What your thinking I am never sure
but maybe its always about her.
You’ve got a girl, pretty and cute
this makes me scream only in mute.
I sit and I stare as time goes by
wondering how and why.
I thought I would try,
but now I am sure she’s got that guy.
I can’t try now, maybe I can, but how?
Should I give him this now?
Will he laugh, will he make fun,
scared of rejection, I think I’ll just run.
His friends might laugh and then I’ll feel bad,
but he’ll probably never, about me, be sad.
Flings come and flings go,
but how do you know?
I think I will let go,
if it comes back then I’ll know.
Until then I will wait
and try to overcome some hate.
Wait a sec I must be dreaming,
what is it I am doing?
Wishing. This it must be
hoping, a guy will see me for me.
Look deep, who’s really there,
you may not know, but I do care.
I want you to know that I’m not crazy in love with you,
just think of this as me telling my feelings to you.
I wanted to get this out, and didn’t know how
but a good time seems to be now.
You never know when I wont be here, and if I don’t tell you this now
then I don’t know when I will ever, or even how.
A poem is the easiest, trust me
I wouldnt want to see your facial expression, with them, they could hurt me.
Im not asking for you to reply,
or for you to ask, “you wrote this why?”
I just want you to know
none of this is for show.
Its only to say,
how I feel in a simple written way.

–Mandy

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