24 Pills And A Night I'll Never Forget by Shan

I had taken a box of coricidine one night
90 minutes later I had no responce
So I smoked a joint to help the pills ignite
Then I stupidly popped another box
That's 24 pills, I swollowed for a high
The thought still makes me ill, I thought I would die
I sat by the television, awaiting the pills kick
My vision went black, I thought I would be sick
I remember thinking--"cool, I'm finally trippin"
Then, sitting there, my conscious started dripping
I knew I had to move, but I couldn't gain control
Nothing could calm or sooth, the game of the pills role
I finally gained enough, to walk down the hall
Walking was tough, every step felt like a fall
Drifting in steps, I had to grab onto the wall
I took a deep breath, I couldn't feel myself at all
Frozen in the moment, eyes distorted all in sight
I turned back to the living room, back to the light
I wasn't just scared of the high, I was scared for my life
Scared I wouldn't make it by, scared for my fight
It took me litterally an hour, to walk those ten steps
I plopped on the couch, awaiting what was to come next
I lost my ability to think, I lost my sence of the world
I felt my concentration sink, into my stomache of curls
The hallusinations of my faded vision was all I could see
New creations created with every sight I could see
I drifted into my mind, maybe into a sleep
I couldn't deside if I had drifted to deep
One final steady thought ran through my mind
Whether I was ready or not--Did I die this time?

LCN (67.30.40.94) -- Tuesday, December 23 2003, 05:35 pm

Relate
I can easily relate bro. Sometimes it seems like death is the only way out but then maybe not. great poem . If you ever need to talk I'm Here.

godchild (140.254.45.60) -- Tuesday, February 10 2004, 03:02 pm

encouragement
IM GLAD YOURE STILL HERE AND THANKFULLY SO IS MY LITTLE SISTER WHO IS MY HEART AND STRUGGLES WITH THE SAME DRUG, CORICIDINE. I ENCOURAGE TO THINK OF SUICIDE AS SELFISH AND REMEMBER THOSE WHO LOVE AND CARE FOR YOU. KEEP YOUR HEADS UP!!!

Danielle W (151.196.6.87) -- Sunday, May 29 2005, 05:31 am

pills
i tryed to kill myself with pills a few weeks ago..but it only made me get put away in a hospitical..i overdosed..took 19 pills..got them from a friend of mine..didnt seem to care.

... (67.168.23.226) -- Sunday, June 12 2005, 10:41 pm

scared
my boyfriend took 65 anti depressants.

Lotus (24.30.122.108) -- Tuesday, August 23 2005, 07:00 am

its all up hill from here
Listen to God child he spits the truth
by the way bomb ass poem

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